You are NOT powerless, no matter what you are told to repeat constantly when you try to get clean/sober in most forms of recovery.
You have the power to change your life. You have the power to not pick up. You have the power to be the best version of the parent/child/sibling/friend that you desperately want to be.
It is important to understand that your subconscious mind will believe what your conscious mind says. What you say to yourself, you will believe.
Is what you are saying and allowing others to tell you lifting you up or knocking you down in your recovery journey?
Change you thoughts and you can change your life.